Monday, January 30, 2006

wobbling around in my head

i went with friends to see last holiday one afternoon afterwork last week. it's ended up haunting me. now it's a comedy mostly but it has this theme of transformation. the thoughts around my own transformation keep wobbling around in my head--what am i afraid of? what's holding me back? how much of my old self do i have to or need to let go of? what am i stepping into? how do i step forward?

and at the moment i just don't have the time, space or energy to be comfortable with the questions, to be able to sit with them and let them wander thru my head at a pace that doesn't feel like finding yourself in the middle of street with a crowd of marathon runners coming at me at full speed. for now, they'll just have to wobble about and i'll have to find a way to be comfortable with my discomfort...

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

me too.
it's been haunting me too...

I'm glad we did that, by the way. I'm looking forward to our monthly movie dates.

oh- and I tried to replicate the "why" dance for eric.

um, yeah, not so much.

'neice said...

I got to see the movie a few days before it opened and yeah...the movie besides making me laugh out loud like I haven't in ages and havnen't since...it gives you a lot to think about. I want to see it again.

mindi said...

'neice--i'm with you on wanting to see it again.

renee--i'm looking forward to our movie dates as well. and i'd love to see your version of the 'why' dance.

:)min

'neice said...

Hey you two...

I will be in So Cal April 21st-30th. Part of that time will be PDCM, but I have "free" days in there as well. We should get together!

Maybe you can teach me to knit. There is the coolest knitting store next door to the our church (Commuknity) and the classes are SO expensive!